EbTheRedHead: Throwback Thursday to my BIRTHDAY!!!

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Throwback Thursday to my BIRTHDAY!!!

One of the things that bother me about my birthday (besides getting older) is the fact that it falls in June. Although I DO love the summer, it is a gentle reminder that half the year has gone by. Up to this point in 2015, my mom was taking care of her sick husband, who eventually passes away, resulting in her depression. Yeah, so far I wasn't enjoying this year. I was trying my hardest to get out of this funk. My mom went into therapy with the suggestion of her doctor, but soon quit after a few weeks. I wasn't expecting her to quit so soon. I really wanted her to talk to someone about her emotions, mostly because I was feeling depressed myself. I couldn't help her feel better. I was failing. I was not good at this.
It was a tough situation to be in because I saw no way out. All I could do was try to visit my mom once a week, as well as call her every night to make sure she's ok. I felt my brothers weren't doing enough to help me deal with her. I felt I was taking it all in more than them, and it was making me upset. I needed some time for myself.
I joined my Firm's softball team. I needed to do something to keep my mind busy and not have to worry so much. They've been asking me for years to join, mostly because they need players badly. I'm terrible when it comes to sports, but I agreed to do it.
I learned a lot about sportsmanship. I also learned I should have been doing this a long time ago. When you're in a team, you NEED TO WORK TOGETHER, and a lot of people have a hard time doing this. They don't "play nice". I loved our pep talks before each game, as well as our talks afterwards recapping the plays. We supported one another, and it's something I needed at the time.
I am doing the best that I can, given the situation at hand. I tried my hardest not to let my teammates down. And if we lose, we got another shot at it next time. Plain and simple. It reflected what I was feeling with my mom, and it made me feel better. Not to mention, swinging a bat whenever you are mad at the world DID was pretty therapeutic. There's no doubt about that.
So once my birthday came knocking on my door, my friends wanted to do something special for me. I just wanted to hangout with them and catch up, but they insisted on taking me out to dinner. We went to Sunda and had sushi and then afterwards, went all over the place. lol. We stopped by Hubbard Inn, then finished off at Room 7 for some non-stop dancing. I loved my birthday! I forgot all my troubles and just focused on me for one night. It was perfect. I don't think my friends understand how much it meant to me. Especially now with our busy schedules, it's getting harder and harder for us to get together. The one thing that does matter is that we check up on one another from time to time. If you wonder how someone's doing, give them a call or a friendly text! You never know if they need a little pick me up.